When life gives you lemons , make lemon pie

I used to think I was this die hard dont give a flying **** type of person. I now realised that I'm not. I care too much about what people think. However to achieve my dreams I have to snap out of it and stop caring, stop worrying and start working. Because in the end all those people whose opinion i so cared about will have moved on with their lives and will have worked to achieve their dreams, and I will be stuck living a life I was not meant to and did not want to live.

I realise that I really am my own worst enemy, with negative thoughts and irrational fears.

So from this day on I declare a change. What people think of me is not important anymore, only what I think of myself.

After all why would I trade in my dreams and my future for an opinion?

Ideas, ideas

These days my mind  is full  with business ideas. So I decided  to write  them  all down  and discuss them  with  my mother,  whose opinion  I value above all. I should actually buy a notebook  or something like that to keep  all these ideas organized, before they  become  overwhelming.

I strongly  believe  that  things  will  happen  to you when  you are ready  for them. Thus I'm  preparing  myself  for a very busy life  by being  busy  now. And I can tell you  that  it takes a whole  lot of getting  used to. My week is do busy it  could  be overwhelming,  thus I'm taking  it all one day at a time. 

Well that's the scoop for today  bloggers I have to  run  and get ready  for my exam. Wish  me luck!

Dee

Epiphany 

Ever had someone say something to you about yourself that totally shook you up?
Well that happened to me yesterday. This guy -for the sake of this blog we will call him Tom-, he and I have been chatting for quite some time now, met him on the internet, he lives in the UK, I live in the Netherlands, just normal stuff nowadays. Anyway he told me that I become a very uhm.. not so nice person, when I don't get my way or when I am angry.

My first reaction of course was to become angry, because I don't care how long we have been chatting, he doesn't know me in real life, and to be fair he is not the easiest person to get along with at all - I often wonder why we even talk to each other-. But that aside after calming down a bit, I realised that it did make me think about myself and how the world sees me. I admit I am not going to suddenly change to please people, but I do realise that I have a not so nice side that could have negative consequences in my future.

I'm not saying that mr. know-it-all Tom is right. However I guess I should thank him for making me critically analyze myself. Sometimes an outside view is just what we need to reveal what we do not see about ourselves. At least now I am concious of my moods and thus I can work on myself on that front.... Now only is know-it-all Tom could do the same with himself -.-

continuing my journey, one step at a time. 

Dee

The Journey begins....

To begin this blog - which I am determined to keep updated this time!- it seems wise to start with the question that I have been asking myself. "Where do I want to be in 5 years". At first the answer was simple, "I want to be successful, have a lot of money, drive a nice car", you know the whole luxury deal...

let me interupt myself right here and tell you a bit more about myself. I'm a girl, from the caribbean, living in the Netherlands and I just turned 19 two days ago. I know what you are thinking "why is a 19 year old girl already planning her future"... well yeah that's just me I guess, with plans as big as mine the earlier you start the better right. I mean since failure is a part of the whole road to success  -or so all the books say- I figured if I start early I can do all the failing now and get to the success right in time to be able to enjoy it. 

But to get back on track. I know what I want, but now comes the big red stoplight that made me think. After reading this article with 18 steps on how to become successful I had to regroup and restrategize. the 2nd point in the article after "imagine yourself successful" was to know what you want to be successful in. Now that is something I never really thought about. I mean everyone wants to be successful right, but how often have we really stopped and asked ourselves what we want to become successful doing?

Well this blog is a documentary of my journey, to discover exactly that. And hey maybe someone else could get inspired by it. In any case welcome on my journey, to discover who I am and what I want in life. 

p.s.  just in case you were wondering what the article/blog is with the 18 steps here is the link!:

http://www.wikihow.com/Be-Successful